Andy (Anne Hathaway) in the movie The Devil Wears Prada made me thinking about myself-as an employee, a worker, a career woman. She is goal oriented. Fresh out of college she wanted to become a journalist. After all, that was what she finished in school. She landed a job in a fashion magazine, but not as a writer, but as an assistant to the editor in chief. She grabbed it and worked well doing it, almost forgotten about it, but managed to look inside her soul until she achieved what she wanted.
Fresh out of UP Diliman, I had not the slightest idea what I wanted. Really! All I remember was I wanted a job because that's what I was supposed to do, work and earn. So I took on the first job offer that came my way, only to leave eight months after - unhappy with how things were so different from my college days, but still more clueless as to where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do. I pursued jobs and companies because my degree fit there, or because some said the benefits and compensation swell. Shallow, mundane reasons. So I never really got to like working. Until now, I am still hesitating over my dream of being an entrepreneur. Yes, the one thing I thought I want to become, would be great at and would be easy to accomplish, still scares me. I am afraid that I will not succeed, or worse yet, bring shame and sorrow to my loved ones. Ah, I am the biggest chicken in town.
God, help me take it one small step at a time. Got to dare! Got to live!
Nothing ventured, not!
So the mommy is not doing so much in terms of achieving things and growing more and more that person she’s got to be. But baby Lois is not taking it slowly. She’s been rolling all over the bed, passing toys from one hand to the other, babbling new sounds in various pitches and expressions (hey, this baby knows how to say ‘papa’ in a spooky way), traveling from one town to another and not complaining about anything, going with different relatives and friends she has never seen before, attending wedding, visiting folks, swimming. She has done a lot, and she’s just over 6 months old.
Oh, I must have done something good. No mommy deserves such charming and jolly baby if she hasn’t been ‘blessed among women’. Well, it really is just about Him. I am thrash, He really just loves sinners.
So much gained
Even instances I thought were bad turn out well in the end. One case in point, our nanny, who is also my niece, didn’t get back from Bulacan. Before she left, our agreement was VERY clear - Saturday evening, she’ll travel back to Manila, to be with us after a brief vacation. But it was evening already and there was no sign of her. Honestly, that’s what I hate most, people who do not honor agreements. So I called her to ask where she was. She said she would be back the following day instead because she wanted to be with her boyfriend in attending Sunday worship service. Irritated because she made it sound like she didn’t really plan to tell me or my husband about her change of plans until we contacted her, I was really cross. Daddy Poh noticed it, so I asked him to answer her back. At times like these, my vocabulary fails me. I would not be able to choose the proper words because I would be very loaded with my emotions, it would be hard to miss what I was feeling.
Luckily, however, the night was not lost. For in her absence, Daddy Poh and I found our way back to being husband and wife again. Having Lois around has really changed a lot of things not just around the house, but in our lives as two people who love each other. I mean, we were twosome before we became parents. And it is a warm feeling to get back to that state again.
Thanks to our nanny, Mhagie!
Congrats and best wishes to Kuya Bong and Ate Alyn!
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